Bout Dat Xperience

Eventuality I can try my hardest to push you to the back of my mind, But what I always seem to find is more than an afterthought, Reflecting in the here and now, Whilst resenting upon what the past has brought, I ought to be happier your out of my life, You taught me such pain... such heartache... such strife! I payed a huge cost just for doing the right thing, But lo! it still burns so as the world turns, Along I move with it and yearn for tomorrow, To heal my concerns I make movements today, But you can't run away to escape from your thoughts, Constrained in time with realities cruel reminders, Longing for a 'just a taste' of what once was, The burden I carry a load so heavy, But only inside can the strain be felt, Taking its toll.. but what keeps me afloat, Is one simple word. ....Eventuality! -Fonzo