Bout Dat Xperience

ALL or nothing! All the signs say I shouldn't but still I persist, Life! An unpredictable string of situations that you can't predict, Many a thing doth change in time, Degeneration of minds, Evolution of physical nature, Ties thus nullified, I look from sight in hind, And try unpack the things that wasn't, A void of darkness came.. consumed.. turned everything to nothing, Confronted with there true identity most will run away, Screaming.. clawing... at there soul internal disarray, Dimensions that surround us, Soon devour what was our synergy, Erosion from differing waves which now refract the energy, Empty now just desolation, Choate to misappropriation Heavy burden of despair upon my bosom laden, You are so careless, So clearly I should care more, But if one exceeds with giving the pendulum will fall, When it was full a complete balance roused a good rapport, A toss up now the coins two side, Hold nothingness or ALL! -Fonzo

Awake In Distaste Consumed with distaste, From the moves that she makes, The routes which she takes, The rules that she breaks, The dudes she embrace, To those whom she shakes, But I will be there..... .... as soon as she wakes! Moods can debase, When subdued by distaste, Value befitting too now defaced, If you will erase, just few will retrace, But I will be here..... .... as soon as you wake! -Fonzo

Eventuality I can try my hardest to push you to the back of my mind, But what I always seem to find is more than an afterthought, Reflecting in the here and now, Whilst resenting upon what the past has brought, I ought to be happier your out of my life, You taught me such pain... such heartache... such strife! I payed a huge cost just for doing the right thing, But lo! it still burns so as the world turns, Along I move with it and yearn for tomorrow, To heal my concerns I make movements today, But you can't run away to escape from your thoughts, Constrained in time with realities cruel reminders, Longing for a 'just a taste' of what once was, The burden I carry a load so heavy, But only inside can the strain be felt, Taking its toll.. but what keeps me afloat, Is one simple word. ....Eventuality! -Fonzo

Love and Lust LOVE is a tool use it, LOVE is vision see it, LOVE is a journey travel it, LOVE is tremendous be it, LOVE is a gift accept it, LOVE is a destination reach it, LUST will consume you escape it, LUST will erode you unload it, LUST will subdue you break it, LUST will confuse you evade it, LUST will goad you control it, LUST will bemuse you blockade it, LOVE will bring comfort and safety, LUST is doubt and displacement, LOVE will enrich you with greatness, LUST is wastage so replace it, LOVE will enrich you keep it, LUST is unjust and misleading, LOVE brings fulfillment exceeding, And LOVING somebody gives living a reason. - Fonzo

The Doors Everything logical says I mustn't, The doors it may open.. Where it could lead, But I remember being left feeling despondent, And that door I'd rather see closed, Now I wander with much trepidation, Gingerly making steps, A quest of enchantment testing my human fabric, Embarking on new horizons, Windows of opportunity mysteriously unknown, But like a revolving door I'm back at the same position, Immersed in a space-time continuum, Visualizing change...... From one extremity to another, Opening different realms, Realistically though some have tried and tested, I haven't.. so I must! What is behind door number 1? Will it provide a happy life? Door number 2 bodes shades of a simpler time... Door 3 a blind spot not known to others, But secretly known to self, Cannot evade such a cruel inhibition, When intuition is cognizant, Still irresolute the choice becomes impending. Forward I move as back is impermeable, Searching for bliss, Doth such place exist, The doors I...

Beauty lies within you A simple glance from you sweeps through my essentia, Engulfing my every existence in your rays, Clarity is all I desire... as my destination obscures, Between the known and unknown are the doors, Of which I shall open up blindly, I wander on forth to see, As I wonder what will be in store, Woe is my lamentations, Stuck with no control, Burdened as I know to live with solace in my soul, My heart is torn asunder, How insatiably I yearn , Your being the only fill to truly satisfy my hunger, You are the love of my life, Indeed the life I love, My feelings are omnipotent place nothing else above, Beauty lies within you, Though externally I see, But plain sight no way quantifies just what you mean to me. - Fonzo

SILWY <3 Magic in its purest form, Bold yet subtle, Emoting elegance like that of a handcrafted gemstone, And so it would seem a flawless existence, If anything could be labeled perfect in the world it would be you, I find myself spellbound gladly at times when, Days are spent engaged in your brown diamonds, Golden trinkets and worldly riches, I never could trade or hold thee above, Gradually reeled in closer & closer, Like my feet has been moved by a force I can't control, Drinking in the gentle aroma, Sweet as carnations in an open field, I yield to the intensity as I recall a simpler past, Vividly it plays centrifugally within my mind, A loop of not the kind so fruity, More like the symbol of eternity, The grandiose depth of my emotions begins to culminate, A heart of gold should so be treasured, Kindred spirits tethered no distance to move, Never! I wanted you out of my life your in-disposable, And so its clear though your not here I...

What can fill the empty void that plague my bleeding heart, Until I felt your gentle kiss I knew not what was love, I hath but one desire in your tenderness to bask, The more time that I spent with you my feelings thus unmasked, Oh how do I long for another dance beneath your gold, A chance to make an imprint eternally within your soul, You are the sunshine of my life, Golden rays like summer skies, Deep child in time no longer visible to I, Where have you gone and left me? stressfully thinking about all of, The moments that flash before my eyes I sink without your love, You doth complete me make me whole, Bittersweet time takes it's toll, Verily only your touch can bring me great resolve. - Alfonso P. Sosa

Women have strengths that amaze men. They bear hardships and they carry burdens, but they hold happiness, love and joy. They smile when they want to scream. They sing when they want to cry They cry when they are happy and laugh when they are nervous. They fight for what they believe in. They stand up to injustice. They don’t take “no” for an answer when they believe there is a better solution They go without so their family can have. They go to the doctor with a frightened friend. They love unconditionally. They cry when their children excel and cheer when their friends get awards. They are happy when they hear about a birth or a wedding. Their hearts break when a friend dies. They grieve at the loss of a family member, yet they are strong when they think there is no strength left. They know that a hug and a kiss can heal a broken heart. Women come in all shapes, sizes and colors... They’ll drive, fly, walk, run or e-mail you to show how much they care about you. The heart of a woman...

Within My Arms I don't have superhuman strength to hold up 50 tons, Nor do I hold a crystal ball to see what we become, I cannot stop a hurricane turn rapid winds to calm, But rest assured that I can keep you safe within my arms , I won't halt a speeding train by standing on the tracks, I don't make crazy promises that I'd do this and that, This world is tough and full of hateful ways to cause you harm, But rest assured that I can keep you safe within my arms , I can't break boulders with my clutch nor make a mountain move, At times I cumulate fervor although it seems abstruse, What you invoke is me holding you tighter in my palms, So rest assured that I will keep you safe within my arms. - Fonzo

Masculine Motility Often it is misconstrued that all men hold an ego, Some are really sensitive just shrouded with machismo, Expected to emote resilience everywhere that we go, Some too hard upon themselves but me I keep it real though, We all are human be that mindful, Cut me and I bleed just like you, Yeah I cry when pains inflicted, To whom I show this is restricted, Some guys masquerade through time hold feelings but don't show them, Often female tendencies are labeled with emotions, So the average guy in mind's evasive of that notion, And garners through the years the pride to walk with something broken, If you look beneath the surface, Explore what a mans real worth is, Delicate beneath the armor, Yearning for a loyal partner, Ye shall find a humble soul that's laudable in splendor, Enriched strength that influence anaclisis agenda, Incomplete without a woman leaves a heart annealing, Hardening from ardors deep burn in turn men too have feelings. - Alfonso P. Sosa

Unknown Number Memorized digits swirl around in my head, Cogitating if I should dial, Choice's, decisions on what I should do? With thoughts of you making me smile, Longing just to hear your voice, I withhold my number and enter yours, Gaze at the screen send or end? Umm?? Take a breath and I pause, What shall I say? What topic is fitting, Should I hang up or call and just listen, Reached a decision just not the right time, Maybe all part of a grander design, Maintain composure from longing to speak, Spellbound in stigmatic levels at peak, What I requireth hegira from torture, Hello!... Here it goes.. I'm ready now.. Sort of! With no-one around the time is now here, Press the green button the phone to my ear, Rampant with fear on how you'll reply, Fears apprehension I deftly defy, .... Mmn I can hear something.. That can't be right, Please check the number again then re try, Guess Its been too long since we've severed ties, As now your phone number has not been reco...

ReBirth Darkness falls, bringing forth a defusing twilight, Light subsides on the horizon what was once a sky bright, Surrounded by morose faces all I see in my sight, I've travelled far so many places wasted years in hindsight, I've wept for those who've suffered long existing in designed strife, Money was my only mission wishing for the high life, My intuition through persistence to main event & highlight, Reached new ambitions, now I'm fixing to straighten up and fly right, And now I look towards the sky as it begins to shine bright, Perfect calm of nothingness in ear shot or an eye sight, A new beginning where to start just picturing where I might, Oh where shall sweet time take me now that once again I'm childlike. -Fonzo

Dear, dear! It seems like an eternity since you've been gone, Feels like eons since we last spoke, I don't know why I'm still holding on, But somewhere inside I conjure up hope, Is everyone laughing as if I'm a joke? A question I have to ask, Did my persistence bring forth division and hinder a beautiful path, Consumed by my loyalty, Consumed by my heart, It's hard to think that you & me could end from our start, In my world you mean so much, Can't find no-one like you, And no-one else will ever love you quite the way I do. 143

Sorry I'm sorry I treated you with respect, I guess that weren't enough, I'm sorry that I showed restraint, When times got really tough, I'm sorry I have loyalty, I guess that makes me weak, I'm sorry when temptation came that I refused to cheat, I'm sorry that I valued you, I'm sorry that I cared, I'm sorry I was here for you when no-one else was there, I'm sorry for my honesty, Should I have lied instead? I'm sorry I refused to think that chivalry was dead, I'm sorry that I kept it real, When others was so fake, I'm sorry that I hugged you close, And made you feel so safe, I'm sorry for my kindness, Being loving as can be, I'm sorry that it weren't enough, To keep you hear with me.

Appropriately entitled the crystal ship as Inspired by the same title track of The Doors. A poem about escapism The Crystal Ship Before I slip into unconsciousness, I visualize the crystal ship, Experience a world of bliss, In sanctuary you won't forget, And as the world comes falling down, Take shelter in the underground, Enclosed within wonderful sights, Lift off and we take flight, I've got to get away on a journey to another plane, Head spiraling around like a hurricane, Search for escape all the time, I need a guide to lead me through the labyrinth in my mind, A journey through the eyes of a troubled soul, Sympathy evoked from the struggle & woes, Will the storm finally weather, I long to escape to a place from the all the pressure, I long for some pleasure once again, The final measure a new beginning, No longer to listen, To wasted ambitions, Hypocrites giving there best catechism, A fall from grace, Driven to a place, I can r...

Laying In her Bed (Thinking Of You) The clock strikes 12 as p assion is rising, Intensifying, querulous subsiding, For now thoughts hiding, As my minds being occupied, Riding, colliding with what's been locked inside, Unwinding the heights where climax has reached, Energy dissolves from where it did peak, And now I find myself simply confused, How I'm laying In her bed thinking of you, The aroma of sweet perfume in the air, Beside me she lies I sense that she cares, Her arm clutching around me with gentle finger strokes, Deftly I withdraw the more that she emotes, Comfort feels good but something's not right, Faced with an image engaged in my sight, Conflicted with plight of If only she knew, That I'm laying in her bed thinking of you, Been together for a while now, But things aren't the same, All that's in common is misery and pain, At what does it gain when the thrill has been lost, Reflections on past directions that cost, Giving up hope i...

The Look of Love When I look at you, I feel you in the pit of my stomach, My heart is filled with burning desire, Hot like 90 degrees of summer, I feel how I felt the first second I saw you, I feel how we clicked, I see your radiant smile, Forth from your pretty lips, Words can't describe my feelings at this time, I try convey emotions through these oblique rhymes, Longing for your touch, Perfecting what life begun, When I look at you I see a wondrous time to come. by Alfonso P. Sosa